Happy New Year! I hope everyone had a great holiday season and was able to enjoy some time off from work and time with family. We had a pretty quiet Christmas day and winter break. We rang in the new year with some of our law enforcement family, something we do pretty regularly. Overall we had a great break and now it’s time to focus on the new year.
This is my first time writing a post about my “word of the year”. In the past I kind of found it annoying. lol Everyone and all of their inspirational word of the year posts drove me a little crazy. Puleeze. I was probably feeling a little bitter and jealous that I didn’t have this great revelation of a word that would define my year. The calendar turned from December 31 to January 1 and I didn’t feel any more inspired. #awesome
This year actually isn’t much different but when I thought about 2016 I knew there were some things that I wanted to focus on. So, if I had to give myself a “word of the year” or in my case “words of the year” it would be
Now, I can’t take credit for this phrase. It’s actually the name of one of my good friend’s blogs. I just happen to think that it sums up my thoughts on this coming year. I want to be BETTER than I was last year. There are some specific goals that I will be setting for myself but overall, I’m focusing on being better.
Better at what you might be thinking? Well, there’s lots of things but here are the main ones I’ll be focusing on.
A Better Child of God
This past year I feel like my relationship with God has been at a standstill. I feel like I’ve made excuses for not reading or praying or spending time with God like I should be; like I need to be. I’ve spent this entire last year trying to do things in my own strength and I really have not had much success. I feel like I haven’t grown much (except around the waist – but that’s its own topic!) and I want to work on that. So. Hello better child of God.
A Better Parent
This is another big one for me. I notice things about myself as a parent that I’m just not very proud of. I lose my cool with my kids; I have expectations that are often times too high; I get angry when I should be more merciful; I set the wrong kind of example with my attitude. I really want to try to make changes within myself to better my parenting. I know God has entrusted me with 3 beautiful kids and I’m just not sure I’m doing the best job that I could be doing. So. Hello better parenting.
A Better Wife
The man and I have been married for over 13 years now and while we have a happy marriage and I feel like I’m a pretty good wife, I want to be a better wife. I want to really try to get to know what my husband’s love language is and show him that I love him in those ways. I want to make the changes that I need to help make our home a comfortable environment for him. For those of you who don’t know, my husband is a police officer. He is actually an investigator (detective). His job is very stressful and his daily commute is long. He sees the absolute worst of the worst. He has been to crime scenes that will make you sick to your stomach. He’s had to deal with child pornography and sexual abuse cases. He’s a hostage negotiator also so he’s been face to face with gun wielding crazies who have no regard for the life of anyone. His job is high stress so I want to work harder at making sure our home is place that he can relax in. For me that means making sure the house is picked up when he gets home; making sure he has clean drawers in his drawer (for those of you who are long time readers you will understand that reference and would you believe that I STILL have laundry issues?! lol); making sure the bills are paid on time and that I’m being a good manager of our home. So. Hello better wife.
A Better Me
This section could have easily been labeled “a better eater”, “a better dieter”, “a better food choice maker” but a better ME is really where it’s at. For years I’ve struggled with my weight. If there’s one thing that has been a constant source of insecurity, low self-esteem, unhappiness within myself it’s been my struggle with food. I’ve struggled to find the root of it. Like, why do I like to eat so darn much???????? lol I’ve struggled with losing weight and feeling like a new person to gaining it and feeling like a complete failure. I’ve struggled with being so darn close to my goal to blowing it with just one pound to go. I’ve struggled with being such a people person that I just always want to be around people but being uncomfortable in my own skin that I don’t want to hang out or be social. The struggle has been real. For a long time. And I don’t really like talking about it. But this year I have to start talking about it. I have to start focusing on a better me. Not just for my own sake but for my families sake as well. If I love myself, then it will trickle down into every other area of my life. So. Hello better me.
Do you have a word of the year? Have you made any resolutions for 2016? I’d love to hear it!